I’ve definitely lacking in updates with my little dermatillomania twitter project called #ProjectNoPick, due to an unannounced and unexpected hiatus. So, to ease my mind and others who are drawn to my posts about dermatillomania, here’s some pictures of the last few days of #ProjectNoPick and my overall conclusions.
My conclusions have been organized into a Q&A. Cause I can.
Has this challenge helped my dermatillomania?
How has this challenge helped my dermatillomania?
- I’ve learned there are many dimensions to battling dermatillomania, and this challenge has helped me acknowledge each one:
- How I Pick: If and when I do pick, it is no longer as deep or hard anymore. I mostly pick to remove perceived imperfections like zits, blackheads and etc. My compulsion used to be picking until I bled; like that was the sign that the imperfection was removed or something. Now, I’ve learned to leave a stubborn zit alone or if stuff does comes out, then its time to just leave it be.
- When & Where I Pick: I now realized there are three major times when I am vulnerable to picking: first, when I wash my face in the morning, second, when I wash my face at night, and third, when I read for a period of time while stressed. The third is unfortunately done subconsciously, though when I do notice, I am mostly able to stop myself. But, as for the first and second, the giant bathroom mirror reflecting my (perceived) imperfections is the main culprit. So, I’ve resorted to avoiding looking in the mirrors when I have a bare face, and placing notes on my bathroom mirror in order to curve the urge.
Would I recommend #ProjectNoPick to anyone?
- I would, but one caution should be noted: this is not a challenge that aims for complete dermatillomania remission. It’s a challenge aiming to raise your awareness, which will (hopefully) lead to a decrease in the picking behavior. Dermatillomania can and does differ from person to person.
What were the biggest difficulties I faced while doing #ProjectNoPick?
- Showing my bare face to the world. I do have a big complex towards it, though I’m pretty sure this challenge has decreased that anxiety.
- A pressure to succeed in no picking. It’s probably the greatest hurdle to get over. Like many other difficulties, dermatillomania is not something that can be easily or quickly resolved. Accepting that fact was so hard.
- Remaining positive in the face of the negative. Whenever I had a day where I picked, a wash of negativity would take me. Turning that feeling around could be hard at times. But, I would try my hardest to think thoughts like: oh, you picked but you made sure you didn’t bleed! Or Hey, you stopped after only two zits, that’s great!
And that’s all I can think of for now.
Check out the dermatillomania tag on my blog regarding my journey!
If you have any questions, the comment box is below and I’ll try to answer them the best I can!